Domestic Engineer

So I am taking a break from my usually happy, whimsical, entertaining, and humorous ( I think they are) blogs and playing the pity card today- just a forewarning.

We have been in Fairbanks for 48 days, tomorrow will be 7 weeks- where in the heck has that time gone?  That being said, my last day of work in SLC was August 30- 58 days ago.  I am going insane.  Literally, I am having regular conversations with Tuke and Foster and I get annoyed when they don't answer me back.  I need to start working- yesterday.

I am sitting at Barnes and Noble (yes, I said Barnes and Noble- they have one here but it is staffed only by Eskimos in seal skin jackets, they have dog sled parking out front and they are closed in the summer so everyone can fish - JK!!) eating my obnoxiously rich chocolate cheese cake and drinking a regular milk grande Java Chip Frap WITH WIP<------see I am really going nuts!  I came into town to get online to look for jobs and yet here I am- blogging away.  I think I am more interested in a personal pity party after getting turned down for yet another job this afternoon then getting anything accomplished, well besides a sugar rush.

I have applied to nearly 2 dozen places and I have gone on 6 different interviews- yet no job.  I have been told at 3 of my 6 interviews that I have held too many jobs in the last few years.  We have moved every 2 years since 2007- I havn't held down a job for more than a year and a half since we left the Soo- who knows I would prolly still have the same jobs if we stayed in Michigan.  So that is a total strike against me.  Yes, I was only 15 days away from a 2 year mark with SLC Corp, but I held two (technically 3) different jobs with them. Lets not forget a part-time/on-call non-profit job in SLC for 12 months.  In Seattle I held 3 different bar/restaurant jobs in 22 months.  Prior to that I didn't work for 3 months while hanging out with Cas, Mag, and Eme in Colorado- totally worth it!  In the Soo, I was at the same bar for 4 years, went to college, had a paid internship, substitute taught, worked on campus, and had an amazing time.  According to potential employers in Fairbanks- I am unstable.  DUH- I already knew that!  Also, with our moving pattern and being new to Alaska-everyone asks when we are moving again. Strike 3.

Every job that I have applied for has been different and unique.  Yes, I have a Criminal Justice Degree with a Juvenile Delinquency focus and don't regret that decision one bit, but apparently that is also against me too.  Potential employers ask "You have a CJ degree, why do you want this job? This isn't CJ related".  I always respond with something like "I know, but this is a public service job.  This is a job where I can make a difference in someones life and that is my ultimate goal. I want to help people and if this is how I can help someone - I have achieved my dream job."  Apparently that is not what they want to hear. I always knew that I wanted to help people.  When I went to college, I thought that I would find a job helping people and that CJ with Juv focus was the way to go- I could help troubled kids.  Apparently not.  I never had the luxury of waking up one day and said wow, I want to be a lawyer, or I want to be a veterinarian. I never had a "moment" where it became clear that I wanted to be a Police Officer or an astronaut.  I am pretty good at helping people- whether it be in a detox facility, a listening ear at the bar, helping a lost child find their mom at the airport or just being able to make someone smile; I am great at that.

Dale has been working since we got up here, Thank goodness!  We are fortunate enough that he makes enough at his job that I don't have to jump into just any job; I can hold out for something that I want.  While this is nice, it is also really hard on me.  I am not a sit at home kind of gal.  I have always held at least one job and been in school or had a part time and well, sometimes I did all three.  Being a stay at home mom to Tuke and Foster just doesn't cut it for me. Maybe when we have a family in the future and I have a baby to take care of, I will change my mind- actually, I am sure I will change my mind and give everything to stay home.

So, now that you have read my self proclaimed pity party, I encourage you to forget it.  I just needed to type it out and get my emotions in check.  Life is really great up here, Alaska is offering so much- just not jobs... yet!  I know I will find something and it is something that I will love. Until then, just call me Susie homemaker :)